Speak up

Fuck you

2009-12-05T13:52:00.000+08:00

Fucked Up life. I hate him

Don't say hello.

2009-08-30T19:44:00.000+08:00

Omg, finally back home.
I`m sososo tired these few days, Exams are around th corner, it's like less than 60 days to my beloved O levels, Followed by a 6x30days holiday. Omg ! (:

SoSoSo looking forward to Decemberr ! (: Misses :x !

Lol, i found out that i like to do stupid thing, like saying random stuff that dont make any sense. blahblah..

Sorry. i`m abit off today. Kinda quite a number of things happened ytd. And i`m not in the mood for anything at the moment. Thankyou Sei and arata for cheering me up aye. You 2 look like idiots thru th webcam (: , Loveyou both. { Ok, i shooo le }

Dont say hello, Cause it`ll end with a goodbye

しんじてる。

2009-08-28T11:50:00.000+08:00

こにちわ。
今日はいそがしい日ね。しけんは難しい D: 、

LOL. i don't know what happened to blogger, i can't adjust the font to be bigger. Received a complain yesterday from seisei, asking if what i'm typing aye, p/s, i 'corrected' what he said to me in broken english. Hahas, There's nothing much for me to say today, Don't have quite the mood to talk due to some incident yesterday about some liar.

Yes. Liar, You seen them everywhere, everytime. At least ten will appear throughout your life. If you deny what i said, you can be either dumb, or blind. Or maybe you're just pure lucky:O ,

I wonder what's there to lie about, well, maybe to cover up of someting wrong that you did? Maybe it's just that you don't want to speak the truth. Okok, i don't say it as though i'm so straight and pure. Yes, even me, lied at times... But still, i really despise liar, Ok i'm contracdicting.

Well, I'm not going go into those content or whatever shit today. Not just in the right mood. Just want to vent out what happened ytd. Yes and it concern about my Little sibling.

Yesterday, i was blogging halfway then i left home, remember that i've cleared all the cups at the computer desk, and i left a packet of food that i`ve bought for myself to eat after i come back later in the evening. And guess what, when i'm back, that packet of food is eaten, and there's a cup on the computer desk, and of course. the lights in the room are all on. I called her, asking if she returned home.

And the first reply i got is : No, i did not go home today, i was out. Why? .
I told her that if it's not her, who else will leave everything likethat? Then i asked, again. Did you return home? Did you eat my food? She admitted to returning home, saying she's just back for a shower and a change of clothes then she went out. She prepared a packet of noodles for herself and washed the bowl and pot. At that point of time i was laughing, thinking this to myself : If you washed the pot or whatever, why do you even leave that cup on the computer desk, shouldn't you wash it as well?.

I demand that she admit that she ate it, Still she denied. And hung my phone. Well, it's not as if i blame her for eating my food. Well who cares, It just cost me like $2, but the thing is, if you eat it, just tell me. There's NO NEED TO LIE. and at least, lie with skill. You, Wash the plate? Dont make me laugh. This incident let me recalled till the day before when i asked her about my sweet, if she took it. Standing in front of me, without blinking her eyes she repeated over and over again, I DID NOT TAKE YR SWEET.

Well, i asked my parents, if they took it and they said No. If it's not you then who? Don't tell me our little puppy went into the room by itself and took my sweet? It makes no sense. If you want it, just say. There's no need to take it and make a lie. You're doing the same as though, you've just killed a person and saying that Nono, i did not kill him/her, he/she took the knife and stab her/himself. It makes no sense,

And i've never seen another person as thickskin as you. Demanding mother to pay for your expenses. What rights do you have? And saying that it's because i did the same thing last year, and you wanted it this year as well. Err, Miss, if i'm not wrong, WE did the thing last year. If you really want to dye yr hair that badly. Go out and work, be a prostitude or what, just get some money and dye it with your own money. If you want me to admit it, Just go away. You don't belong to this family. I really hate you.

Well, i'll end this shit here incase someone 'stalks' me and read everything -'-

Well, recently i'm hooked onto this nice song (: , i'm not sure if i get the Words right, especially those in kanji (: , well i'm still learning. Cousins, don't mind helping me right ? Here goes : ( i only typed out th jap parts)

花は風に揺れ踊るように
雨は大地を潤すように
この世界は寄り添い合い生きてるのに
なぜ人は傷つけ合うの
なぜ別れは訪れるるの
君が遠くに行ってもまだ
いつもこの心の真ん中
あのやさしい笑顔でうめつくさらたまま
抱きしめた君のかけらに
痛み感じてもまだ繋がるから
信じてるよまた会えると

君の孤独を分けてほしい
光でも、闇でも
二人だから信じ合えるの
離さないで

世界の果てを誰が見たの
旅の終わりを誰が告げるの
今は答えが見えなくて永い夜でも
信じた道を進んでほしい
その先み光が待つから
君が教えてくれた唄は
今もこの心の真ん中
あのやさしい声と供り響いている
溢れる気持ちのしずくが
あたたかく頬つたう
強くなるね
信じてるよ
繋がってると

君のために流す涙が
愛を教えてくれた
どんなに君が道に迷っても
そばにいるよ

哀しみでも悦びでも
君の全てを守りたい
どんなに君が道に迷っても
そばにいるよ
二人だから信じ合えるの
離さないで

Hahas, i just realise i'm quite pro, i typed it out quite fast (: that's it aye.

あんたわ私のもの。

2009-08-27T13:27:00.000+08:00

Roar.
I wanted this post to be in jap actually, but i doubt anyone will understand it (: , i`ll leave the dedication to them in th end :D

Well, i guess it's not fun or interesting if i blog about : Today, ____ happened.. blahblah. Let's have a change aye?, hahas.

Do people like it when you call or message your friend, asking like hey, where're you? i cant seem to see you. And you got the reply as : Somewhere. And when someone else did that to that same friend of yours, and they knew where she/he is at immediately. Do you get pissed off? Thinking that, Am i not your friend? Why is there such a big difference in the treatment?

Have it ever happened that you asked a favour from that friend and you got the reply as : I dont want to help you. it's too troublesome, Goodluck doing it yourself, etcetc.? But then another person ask that friend of yours the same question and got the reply as : Sure, no problem. Or that some person did not even speak up and that friend of yours already spoke up that she/he wanted to help.? Thinking again that it's unfair?

Well the same things happened to me. Well there's so much more to say but i`m gona cut it short then. Since this is a blog for me to vent my frustrations and anger, blahblah.

If you ever met that kind of friend, will you continue to be his/her friend? Or you'll just walk away?

Frankly speaking, Thou she's my friend, i kind of feel fed up at times, Seriously, i hate her. I dislike the way she's acting. I wanted to graduate soon and so i'll never ever haf to see her again. Why is it just me? The problem lies with me? Or with you? Or is it that you just dislike me like i dislike you? Just speak up then. I won't know the reason you're acting like that unless one of us speak up you know? This kind of loser is just so fucking annoying. Damn crap ass personality, character.

Awws well. There's more but i'm sort of in a rush to go out now D: Will continue some other day or what, there's quite alot for me to say :O ,

Now to them :
星ちゃん、慧ちゃん、龍おにちゃん、新たおにちゃん。
あいたかた、お元気ですか。
相変わらずに元気で過ごしてる。
何時もシンガポルで行くか。
あんたたちわ私の空、哀しみまでも包みこんで。
あんたたちが大好き！！ :D
Sorrrry!): if it's terrible. it's been so so long since i use jap to talk to you all :x hahas. Hope december comes quickly, I miss you all (:

A New Start

2009-08-26T16:42:00.000+08:00

Argh, let this blog be the last one for me, and the new start of myself.

I wonder if everyone even met one of those people called ' Hyprocrites '. They may be your friends, or even your love ones. They go acting friendly and sucking up to you and then telling those crapass shit behind your back. They go telling you that they dislike those people around you and ended up being so damn close to them. They told you negative things about someone and then doing the same to elseone bout you.

Firstly, i wonder why they are doing all these, Forfun? Do they really enjoy doing all these? Seeing people detest each other cause of one stupid lie they say? Seeing good friends severing their friendship because of something that did not even happened before? is it just that they wanted some attention? Or is it that they just have too much fucking free time to gossip behind people's back? Or is it just that they feel happy seeing people around them to suffer?

Man, it sound like those fuckers are masochist or saddist. Well if they're one, Hey, If you want to be happy or satisfied to see one suffer. Do it to yourself, hurt yourself. I dont care if you're gona take a penknife and leave scars all over your arm. Or making people detest and hate you while you're there feeling uberly satisfied with the result. You can even be a prostitude and then feel sad over that shameless and dirty body of yours but at the same time feel satisfied. Man, if you want to, i can even lend you a hand, I dont care if it turn into a S-M play. (: (Awws, i dont know if i sound right here O: )

Secondly, I really wonder, what do 'friend' mean to you? Or do you even have one who you can call friend, Is it jealousy that leads you to do this? Seeing others in group and you're always an outcast and thus you wanted to destroy their friendship? it's childish, and pointless. Your action will only let people detest you more. Well, maybe? But it's a Yes for me.

Ok, i really cant think much about the content part -.- my brain's not functioning today.Argh.

Thinking why i'm suddenly up to this topic? Let's see a real life example then O:
I'm gona be nice and not reveal any name first,

Myself - Friend A
My friends, -Friend B,C,D.

Let's just make it between the four of us (:

I used to have a very close friend B, but because of some things, we drifted apart and at that time, she knew her fwen C and i know another friend D. It's till around last year when B contacted me again. Well, at that point of time, i was wondering it wont hurt if i talk to her right? We meet up, and chatted over things and event over the past year when we did not contact. She told me quite a number of things and well, most certainly everything. She apologised that time for the sudden ' drifting', pushing the blame to C , saying it's cause of her saying some things about me.

At that time, i was wondering, is it only C's fault? Don't you feel that you're abit at fault for listening to her? Trusting her over your best friend at that point of time? She continued talking about C. Like how C's always following her, making use of her, How C wanted to sort of ' bully ' me , like taking away my textbook, putting a vibrator in my bag,etc. Well, she make it seems like C's the one at fault eh. But from my point of view, : Is C really following you? Or is it the other way round? I see you running to her class every recess, after school. And why do she want to bully me? I don't even know her that well. Well, maybe my attitude sucks, but then i don't know her, and i don't want to know her. If she's that free to bully one who she don't know, then i can say that she's pretty lame and lifeless. ( well , i cant remember what happened totally, but that's part of it )

Skipping C, let's start with my fwen, D.
I used to hang out with D, not best of friend maybe, but still friends. Whenever B come to find me and seeing me with D, She'll send me a message, stating she felt left out, and that she's jealous that i`m so close with D and not her. She then tell me she don't like D's attitude, how she's so fake, etc etc. (that's part of the idea).

Recently, i see her sticking up to D. like a bee keeps on coming to th honey aye. Then i was wondering, Didn't you say you detest her ? Didn't you say you don't want me to be close with her? Then why are u closer to her even than me? Well it's not jealousy that i say this. But i really feel that B should at least Do what she say..

Augh, i really suck at giving examples =.=''
Forget it. That's it for now.